The True Meaning of 'RAWR'.

I hate this feeling.

And I hate hating how I feel.

The funny thing is I have no way of describing how I feel other than through the word  
RAWR.
{which has more than enough meanings to confuse me}

Is it 'RAWR; I love you' ?
or
Is it 'RAWR; I'm-a tear you limb from limb and eat your brains out' if you don't stop NOW...? 
 

And OH MAN I wish I could be like Calvin,

turn in to a big ol' T-Rex

just to snack on whoever makes me feel this way.

Yeah... that sounds really good right about now.

{om nom nom}

That's kinda violent...

Sorry.

OK.

Just breathe.

BREATHING.

I think it's because I don't like feeling ...

Lost?

Nope.

Used?

Nada.

Completely thrown into left field,

with no idea where the ball could land?

....

...... ......

Yeah, that's it.

Sooo, um RAWR.

I am trying so SO very HARD to make things right.

to be the elusive 'T' word:

Trusting. 

{and thats a stretch for me}

But it's tough when a girl doesn't have any IDEA

of where things are going.

Enlightening would be welcome, please.

I hate beating around the bush.

But even if I ask; all I will get is more beating around the freaking bush.

...or WORSE:

a question.

A QUESTION thrown back at me to divert the conversation.

OR

Maybe a joke...

who knows.

RAWR.

I know what I want.
but do you?

Not Knowing...

That's what I hate.